Mi Amigo...

You want an answer. Here it is.

You've known me for what seems like forever. Heard all the crazy things that just pop into my head. Watched me dance, watched me fall, and heard me hit a flat note. Thanks for all of that. It means alot that you're willing to endure all the, well not exactly crud, but every thing that comes with hanging out with me.

But I can't go through with this. Not when it feels the way it does.

I don't know what it feels like on your side but let me tell you mine. I've known you so long, it's gotten to the point where you aren't just my friend any more, you're a brother. And not the stupid street way. And everytime I think of it, it just feels wrong. I don't think it's something I could ever get used to. Going from you to you and that's not something I want to do.

So in very simple laymans terms, no.

I can't and I won't.

Don't think you can change my mind. Or that changing yourself will make a difference.

I thought something could, and it can't. And I'm sorry.

Don't lie about not being hurt, because it happens to everyone. With no exceptions.


Hmm, you want to know what the absolute crappiest part of this is, at least for me?

There isn't any going back to the way things used to be. Words have been said and actions have been taken. We won't ever be the same way we were. Hopefully, it won't be enormous, but it'll be there. And that's what I absolutely hate.